Perspective

I like to have a million things on my mind at once. It keeps life interesting and my anxieties at bay. By thinking about all the things I need to do and all of the people that I interact with on a daily basis, I never needed to focus on myself too much. I was thriving. It was great.

But now, life came to an abrupt halt. I have spent way more time with myself than I ever wanted to. I can already feel my mind shifting back to a time when my brain was one big knot without a place to unravel. When this happens, I know I can become extremely self-centered and pessimistic. I have already felt a significant confidence & motivation crash. To be honest, I’m scared sh*tless of what is to become of me in this time of uncertainty.

But in His own Way, Christ has shown me time and time again that no matter how hard these past few weeks have been for me, no matter how big my problems seem to be, no matter how heavy my cross feels – He has already carried the heaviest Cross so that I wouldn’t have to. Looking at myself – my tiny, 5’0” tall self – sitting on the steps of the Basilica is rather striking. Only a fraction of the Basilica fits into this frame. The size of the Basilica is unfathomable to me – just something that I don’t think will ever get old. That same awe is what has put my sorrows into perspective. It’s so easy to get wrapped up in my own head and lose sight of God, especially nowadays when there is an excessive amount of free time on everybody’s hands. Even though I’ve been struggling with my faith for the past couple of years, it has always remained clear that God is bigger than I can ever imagine – even bigger than the Basilica!

Hang in there, everyone! Take care.